I don't know how exactly I got to the state of laziness that I currently inhabit comfortably, but the fact remains: here I am. I do know that it was not one singular event, but the result of years of choosing inaction. Over my life time I built a habit of laziness. It is always something small to start with. Usually I encounter a problem or something that would be simple to take care of right then, but the voice says "I can get that later." It is that attitude, over years, that builds to a lifestyle of inaction. Now I have to spend so much energy just to get myself to be proactive on the smallest of issues.
It doesn't help that I have lofty aspirations. At this point I am no longer satisfied with my life of mediocrity. I have a wife and newborn daughter and I do not want to be busting my back till I die being only able to just provide barely what they need. I would like not only for them to have a comfortable life, but I would like to be a part of it more than I am away from them. I know that I don't have to explain the way the deck is stacked against the working class. However, instead of whining for a hand up I decided to work harder to achieve my goals. The problem is that I have 30 years of laziness to combat. So what do I do?
Most of the work I have been doing has been mentally tearing myself down. This is a challenging task. It is important to remember that I am human and that I have a tendency to fail and screw up, but it is a sudden threshold between mentally motivating myself to be better and completely demoralizing myself to giving up. I teeter on that line most of the time. Self loathing is a useful tool but a double edged sword to be sure.
The most success I have had is from acting in the same fashion that I have been not acting. By that I mean in incremental steps. I have identified the mental tendency to put off what I can do now and have been taking those steps. The small things that get put off: Repairs around the house, putting back things when I am done with them (even if I will use it again tomorrow), taking out the trash before it is overflowing, etc. Procrastination and unwillingness are the stepping stones to my lazy hideaway and I am doing my best to remove them completely from my life.
Thus far I have had little success but I am full of willingness and drive. I have found that telling people of your struggle is an effective way to battle it. Admittance is the first step to recovery. So I am asking you to be my witness. I am challenging myself before you that I will overcome laziness and achieve my goals for myself and for my family.
Please leave me some help in the comments below. Tell me about your struggles with laziness and what you have done to overcome it. As always visit my website or my various social medias. Good luck and good love in the world.
-Patrick Lyndaker
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